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Name: David
Birthday: 2/9/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: The Afghan Whigs, Antony & the Johnsons, The Arcade Fire, At The Drive-In, Badly Drawn Boy, The Beatles, Beck, Belle & Sebastien, Bloc Party, Blonde Redhead, Bob Dylan, The Books, Brand New, Brian Eno, Bright Eyes, Broken Social Scene, Coldplay, CURSIVE, David Bowie, Death Cab for Cutie, Desaparacidos, The Decemberists, Dredg, Eels, ELLIOTT SMITH, Explosions in the Sky, The Faint, The Flaming Lips, Franz Ferdinand, Hot Hot Heat, Interpol, JEFF BUCKLEY, Jimmy Eat World, Joanna Newsom, John Lennon, The Mars Volta, matt pond PA, Mew, McLusky, MF Doom, Modest Mouse, Morrissey, Muse, My Bloody Valentine, Nada Surf, New Pornographers, Nick Drake, Nine Inch Nails, The Notwist, Oasis, Pedro the Lion, Postal Service, Prefuse 73, Queens of the Stone Age, RADIOHEAD, Rilo Kiley, Saul Williams, Say Anything, Sigur Ros, Simon & Garfunkel, Slint, Smashing Pumpkins, The Smiths, Spoon, Stars, The Stiletto Formal, Sufjan Stevens, Ted Leo, 13 & God, and many more, but i'm out of room.
Expertise: Well, I have no real expertise, but I'm closest to an expert at classical saxophone. I've got a long ways to go.... I'm workin hard though! Maybe someday... Yeah, I know you're all jealous. I mean, who doesn't want to be a phenomenal classical saxophonist?
Also like to think I know about good music and movies, but that's just my elitist opinion. Everything you like sucks unless I like it too. Specifically, your music and movie preferences.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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AIM:  saxyboy003
Member Since:
7/2/2004
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| I think it's a little to early in the semester to be developing a
twitch. In my right eye. This is majorly fucked up. Soon I'll probalby
start losing hair.
And
I dropped my saxophones today. And they're fucked up. Wonderful,
considering I have a recital jury in the morning. Playing it on someone
elses horn, then i have to somehow find time i don't have to go to
lansing to get it fixed.
I think this semester could actually kill me. literally. I'm insane.
P.S. The Arctic Monkeys are sick. As good as the british hype? I think
so. I'm pretty sure it's like taking all the recent British 'next big
things', putting their good attributes together, and making one kick ass
band. I love it.
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| 10 Reasons Why Today Was Sweet and other stuff
1. Got a call that said I didn't need to go to the dentist
2. So I slept til 11
3. Went to see The Squid and the Whale (again) with my mother and it was wonderful and she liked it, even though it wasn't particularly easy for her (going through a divorce)
4. Nap time
5. Fixed up my resume to send to places I want to intern...
6. Sushi
7. Started reading A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers!
8. Figured out that I can finish my degree and minor in 4 years w/out any summer school... meaning I can intern wherever I want and not have to worry about classes or anything this summer!!!
9. Managed to not argue with my dad all night.
10. Saw Brokeback Mountain and it was beautiful.
So yeah, all that was sweet... but the best thing by far is figuring out for sure how I'm going to get out of BG in 4 years sans summer school for sure. This allows me to do whatever I want this summer, be it New York, Seattle, Georgia, Ohio or elsewither. Now I just need to get something lined up!
I've been reading a lot over break... finished Middlesex before break, then on break I've read: Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk, Everything Is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer, and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close also by JSF. I'd HIGHLY recommend all of them, in the reverse order listed. Both JSF books are amazing, albeit similar in style... but yeah. If you're looking for something to read, EL&IC is amazing. Please pick it up.
I've been on a bit of a nostalgic trip recently. I've been talking to Jessica a bit the last few days. No one who reads this has any idea who that is i don't think... But she's the girl I dated in high school, and into college a bit. My longest relationship ever, and probably most serious. We broke up more or less because I went to college in Ohio, while she went to Washington. It was devastating at the time, but i've been over it for a few years now. Anyways, we've been talking, and it's been wonderful. I was around her house sorta tonight, so i took a little visit, and i drove that 25 minutes drive between our houses for the first time in forever. It was crazy weird. I guess part of the reason I'm looking into sub pop and kexp is because jess is in seattle. I wouldn't ever plan on going there to get with her... but i mean, I am curious to see if what we had then would turn into something again, or if we're both so different now that it would never work. But yeah. Just something to think about i guess.
Tomorrow (today)'s my last day in AZ, and I'm going to miss it a little. It bores the shit out of me, i don't really have any friends that I relate to..... but I'll miss my family. They're so fucked up, it's really hard to live here... but I know that I make things easier for everyone. I at least attempt to make my dad happy, to care about his feelings, and to help him. I know my mom misses me like crazy when I'm gone. My little sister loves having me around (usually)... so it's hard to ditch them for Ohio, with no plans of ever really coming back for an extended period. Growing up is weird. Families are weird. Arizona is weird. Not calling it home anymore is weirder.
But I'm looking forward to Ohio and the upcoming semester. I miss my turtles, I miss my friends, I miss being busy. So yeah. Goodbye 80 degree arizona. Hi Ohio... | | |
| So, I spent much of today creating a list of my favorite and therefore the best albums and songs of 2005. I hope you appreciate this list, and will comment/critique/debate my selections. I like my list a lot, and if you feel it has problems, i want to know/fight you. Also, the songs list is probably missing a lot, because I did it real fast. I like the list, but if you have anything to add, comment so I can change any gross oversights, ok? I like my albums list, so we can fight if you disagree!
David's Top 40 Albums of 2005
- Animal Collective – Feels
- Broken Social Scene – Broken Social Scene
- Wolf Parade – Apologies to the Queen Mary
- Antony & The Johnsons – I Am A Bird Now
- Sleater-Kinney – The Woods
- The National – Alligator
- Kanye West – Late Registration
- Sufjan Stevens – Illinois
- Bright Eyes – I’m Wide Awake It’s Morning
- Why? – Elephant Eyelash
- Sigur Ros – Takk
- Make Believe – Shock of Being
- Dangerdoom – The Mouse & The Mask
- Of Montreal – Sunlandic Twins
- Silver Jews – Tanglewood Numbers
- Art Brut – Bang, Bang Rock & Roll
- Andrew Bird – The Mysterious Production of Eggs
- Clap Your Hands Say Yeah – Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
- M.I.A. – Arular
- …And You Will Know Us By The Trail of Dead – Worlds Apart
- Bloc Party – Silent Alarm
- Dungen – Ta Det Lugnt (U.S. Release)
- Serena Maneesh – Serena Maneesh
- The Go! Team – Thunder, Lightning, Strike (U.S. Release)
- The Mountain Goats – The Sunset Tree
- Caribou – Milk of Human Kindness
- Page France – Hello, Dear Wind
- Fiery Furnaces – EP
- Low – The Great Destroyer
- Akron/Family – Akron/Family
- A Silver Mount Zion – Horses in the Sky
- Spoon – Gimme Fiction
- M83 – Before The Dawn Heals Us
- Stephen Malkmus – Face The Truth
- The New Pornographers – Twin Cinema
- Devendra Banhart – Cripple Crow
- The Decemberists – Picaresque
- Beck – Guero
- Blackalicious – The Craft
- Rogue Wave – Descended Like Vultures
Honorable Mentions (Alphabetically):
13 & God – 13 & God
Atmosphere – You Can’t Imagine How Much Fun We’re Having
Boy Least Likely To – The Best Party Ever
Common – Be
Eels – Blinking Lights and Other Revelations
Gorillaz – Demon Days
LCD Soundsystem – LCD Soundsystem
My Morning Jacket – Z
Stars – Set Yourself on Fire
Tom Vek – We Have Sound
The White Stripes – Get Behind Me Satan
Top 30 Songs
- Wolf Parade – ‘I’ll Believe in Anything’
- Broken Social Scene – ‘It’s All Gonna Break’
- Animal Collective – ‘Grass’
- Antony and the Johnsons – ‘Hope There’s Someone’
- Bright Eyes – ‘First Day Of My Life’
- The National – ‘City Middle’
- Sufjan Stevens – ‘John Wayne Gacy, Jr.’
- Bloc Party – ‘Banquet’
- Dangerdoom – ‘Sofa King’
- Art Brut – ‘Good Weekend’
- Gorillaz – ‘Feel Good Inc.’
- Sleater-Kinney – ‘Modern Girl’
- Fall Out Boy – ‘Sugar We’re Going Down’
- Ted Leo – ‘Since U Been Gone/Maps’ (Cover Song)
- The National – Daughters of the Soho Riots
- Animal Collective – Turn Into Something
- Sigur Ros – Glosoli
- Low – When I Go Deaf
- Of Montreal – Wraith Pinned To The Mist (And Other Games)
- Spoon – I Turn My Camera On
- Kanye West – Diamonds from Sierra Leone (feat. Jay-Z)
- Art Brut – Emily Kane
- LCD Soundsystem – Daft Punk is Playing in my House
- The Go! Team – Ladyflash
- Boy Least Likely To – Be Gentle With Me
- My Chemical Romance – Helena
- Andrew Bird – A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head To The Left
- The Arctic Monkeys – I Bet You Look Good on the Dancefloor
- The National – Mr. November
- Lady Sovereign – ‘Random’
Honorable Mention (Alphabetically):
13 & God – Superman on Ice
...Trail of Dead – Will You Smile Again for Me?
Devendra Banhart – Long Haired Child
Caribou - Yeti
Clap Your Hands Say Yeah – Skin of my Yellow Country Teeth
Coldplay – Fix You
M.I.A. – Galang
Kanye West – Golddigger
Kanye West – Roses
White Stripes – My Doorbell
(I’m sure I’m missing A TON of stuff here) | | |
| i'm back in ohio and it's cold!
jim tried to kill my turtles while i was gone. bastard. but i saved them, like a good daddy.
my sister's wedding was absolutely beautiful and perfect. it was one of
the most enjoyable days of my life. i am completely jealous of the love
between her and jason. i really want to find that, more than i have
words to express. it's all i think about. it's what i want out of life
more than anything. 1) find love that won't die. 2) have a family with
this person. everything else is secondary to my search for this.
everything. i don't think anything in life will make me happy unless i
am successful in my search for true love.
sometimes i think i won't ever find it.
it was a wonderful weekend. i like arizona in small stints. christmas
break will probably be about my limit. but it was really nice to be
home. i look forward to going back, which i didn't think i would ever
feel again.
these next two weeks could be brutal. tomorrow = all nighter at the
recording studio. finishing my final music tech project is going to be
very time consuming, plus finals and other things... i'm gonna be busy.
i hope i make it through without any mental or emotional break downs.
i've felt on the edge of one or both at various times in the last few
weeks. I need this upcoming break. | | |
| People can be so disappointing. I'm really angry and upset right now. And hurt. And of course, it's not something new. I'm still hurt by Tina. It hurts that I put so much of myself into that relationship. I put that above absolutely everything in my life. Everything I did all semester was based on making things with Tina work. I re-arranged my entire schedule so that I would put myself through hell on days that I didn't see her, just so that when I did, I could dedicate all of my energy and attention towards her, instead of neglecting her for doing homework or whatever. I decided that I would do everything I could to make her happy. If she wanted to go somewhere, I made it happen. If she wanted to get food, we'd do it. I spared no expense, not because I wanted to impress her with money, but because I just wanted to do everything I could to make her happy.
And for a while, I thought we were happy. There was a point where everything seemed so perfect, so good. We would hang out, have fun every weekend, whether it was doing something fun like Put-in Bay, or just sitting around in my bed being old people, with her knitting, and me reading a book. The happiest point for me was when she made me a drawing, a two-paneled thing where the first one was her saying 'sometimes waking up can really suck.' and the second said something like, 'unless you're waking up next to someone you really like.' and it made me so unbelievably happy. I was thinking in my brain when would be an appropriate time to tell her I loved her... before Christmas break? Any random time? When laying around in bed? It wasn't a question of if I thought I should, it was a matter of timing. I was so happy.
And then November hit, and everythings changed. I don't know exactly what happened, but to me, the thing that made everything noticeably different was when she began hanging out with Ryan. Maybe that's just something that I've decided to blame it on, but it just seems to me like as soon as they started hanging out, she stopped really wanting to talk to me on the phone, she wasn't open about anything, she didn't kiss me anymore, seemed to not enjoy sleeping in the same bed as me anymore, etc. And whenever she wasn't with me, they were hanging out. I don't know if I'm completely blowing this out of proportion or not. She never really told me convincingly that there wasn't anything with him. She said there was nothing going on and they were just friends, but yeah. I don't know.
But, things continued to grow apart, she was more and more distant, less affectionate, and seemingly stopped caring about our relationship. And we broke up. And we hung out, and still have been friends, even though it's been a little bit hard from me. I try to suck it up and make that work. I'm hurt that what we had went away so fast, and that it doesn't seem to bother her at all. I think that's what hurts most, that she doesn't care that it didn't work, it doesn't upset her at all, she has no lingering feelings, she doesn't miss it... and i do.
The reason I think she has no lingering feelings, and doesn't care about what happened to us? The thing that prompted this unnecessarily long and boring xanga entry? Last night I went to a concert with conee. When I picked her up, ryan was over w/ tina. no big deal i guess. But the thing that made me hurt and upset was when I got Conee home at 3 or so, he was still there. My only guess is that he spent the night, and that I've been replaced. I mean, they probably won't be official for a while, because that's what Tina does... but I have a feeling that I'm already long in the past to her, and that her and Ryan some sort of a thing, even though she tells me different. It hurts really bad to think that our break-up affected her so little, and that she is already completely ready to move on. I've never felt so completely unappreciated by someone. Like it was so easy for her to accept everything that I gave her, and my guess is if I hadn't forced us to talk about all the bad stuff that was going on, we'd still be together, and unhappy, and she'd still be fine with my buying her things, taking her places, and stuff. I just feel like I tried so hard, and it hurts that she's completely removed from it all so fast.
I wish I could be like that.
Maybe I jumped to conclusions about the Ryan thing w/ last night. Maybe I'm paranoid. But this is just how I feel this morning. And it sucks.
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